the following is from my journal:
Commander’s Log: Stardate 4APR2017
Field of Dreams
7:31am: Last night, we watched “Field of Dreams,” and it was beautiful. After it was over, I cried with the thought of “I’m doing my best.”
Why did that set me to tears?
- because no matter what I do, it seems to not be enough?
- was it Spirit saying “I’m doing my best?”
- am I in truth so hard on myself (subconsciously) that the tears over the thought came because of all the pressure I place on myself?
I did notice once again how un-relaxed I am, when I noticed how uneasy I was just leaning against my car smoking a cigarette…
“If you build it, he (they) will come.”
~ I DID have the *random* thought of Galen Urso (builder of the Death Star) this morning in the shower. AND while watching Field of Dreams and smoking pot, I thought once again about ‘desire’ and how some spiritualists advocate getting rid of desire, but I said “OH…but when you’re a Creator, desire is important.”
Although, this morning, a.k.a. right now, I’m wondering about:
“Well, what if you just “Loved and/or enjoyed the thought of something,” and left “desire” OUT of the equation?
Because does ‘desire’ imply “intention to possess/have something? Whereas ‘Loving‘ just Loves, just enjoys, whether it be “love doing whatever you’re doing,” or “love the thought or idea” of something?
And you don’t need to fear “but without desire, how do you act or do or pursue anything???” because
“Love moves the soul to act.”
So maybe I shall work toward and intend more to just Love thoughts/actions/perceptions, and see if I can spend MORE time doing that than “desiring” anything…
This strategy sounds pretty neat…